this is my fav of the lot

Anthony J Matlak

i didn't know i was pregnant

i have been off line the last couple weeks, and unavailable for comment. i've teamed up with former co-op coworker susanna dzejachok, aka redozo farms, and am working the farmers market circuit. we grow, we broker, we bake, etc. we will try to get a blog going soon and advertise our weekly goods and schedules. i will deliver produce free anywhere in lakewood. we will be at coit road market tomorrow, saturday, 6:30 am - 1:00 pm. i will try to get back on line later today with a list of goods.

following are photos and art accumulated over the last several weeks.

peas

Fireworks and Psychotropics

i am mesmerized by the buzz of lawnmowers and the shadow play of the trees out the kitchen window. a chipmunk has been busy in the garage gutters and then the grass. the squirrels don't seem to notice, nor the birds. a spiderweb clings precariously between clotheslines in the breeze. a single fly wants to get out on the other side of the screen.

yesterday, the 4th, about 75 relatives gathered up near sandusky. i was unable to get there. still, it was gratifying to know it was happening, just as it has been nurturing to simply be in ohio again. in cleveland. in lakewood. it will happen again in two years. i look forward to seeing the photos.

i spent the 4th baking bread, missing my wife, and watching the u.s. presidents on the history channel. i am almost completely off my meds now; i still take 75 mg of levothyroxie, and am down to 50 mg of sertraline (from 200 mg) and completely off the bupropion, montelukast sodium, atomoxetine, and methylphenidate.

i'm not happy about it, mind you; it is not without consequence, but i'll survive. i see this as a detox and regroup maneuver. i know i was under too much stress for too long, and taking medication, even when necessary, becomes a slippery slope. so when i saw the handwriting on the wall i started cutting my doses in half, and then in half again, until the scripts finally ran out.

so, yeah, i'm moody, and more lathargic that usual. my sleep cycle is all fucked up. but this too shall pass. i'll get a job, and a new doctor, and we''ll start again.

Just Goofin Around

Gayle DeLuca: 1959-2008

Gayle DeLuca: 1959-2008

via (title unknown) by DQRC on 1/31/09

Gayle DeLuca, a Deaf lesbian, passed away on December 27, 2008 in San Francisco. She was 49 years old.

Originally from Cleveland, Ohio, Gayle set roots in San Francisco over 20 years ago and was a long-time resident of the Castro district. She was known for her energetic, adventurous spirit, beautiful smile and big heart. Gayle was the type of person who was quick to help those in need. She was a long-time member of the leather community and was rarely seen in public without her leather chaps and head bandana. She is missed.

A memorial and celebration of her life will take place on Saturday, February 7, from 1 to 4 p.m. at the Eagle Tavern in San Francisco. Those attending are asked to wear a bandana in her honor.

Triangle Mandala - made from Erik's photo of river rocks

This is 1600 x 1600 pxs - should print pretty high rez up to 12" to 18" square. Original is 2600 x 2600 pxs - will email it to anyone who wants it.